Today must have been the simplest yet sweetest day in a while. Not that the other days weren't sweet nor simple but let me put it this way: today was one of a kind. My body clock somehow deviated from the norm. Woke up pretty early, waited for my boyfriend to be awake and he was at my place by 9:30am. He brought a loaf of bread and a tub of Neapolitan ice cream. Yummy. (Y) I was and still am thankful that he brought food over because that's how I've been eating at least a meal in a day. Hmm. Anyway, we decided to watch D'movie, A Walk to Remember, together. It was super heartbreaking, it left me vulnerable for quite awhile. It has side effects on me too. That's how good the movie is.
Thereafter, baby and I talked. That's when everything seems to be much clearer to me now. I know, after a year plus being together, there were times when I felt insecured. I used to doubt him a lot, probably because of his past, maybe it was just basically him in person. Besides that, I think excessively too. Nonetheless, I saw a sudden change when we talked just now. I know he's someone different and I'm proud of him because he managed to change in a short period of time. I've no idea why I broke down just now, when we were merely recalling things we did together, the times we've spent together throughout the past December, the past year. I felt touched. I feel upset that the best December I could have ever imagined to experience, had just passed me by. That emotion I felt just now caught me off guard. I didn't want to tear in front of him. Neither do I want to show how sentimental/vulnerable I am. It just happened. I thought it was alright to express how I feel in front of him but....... it affected him as well. Well, I just want to say that those criticisms, labels, negative thoughts about you in the past, they do not stay with you until now. Because I know how much have you grown out of how you were last time. Don't be disheartened. You'll always be the best guy I will ever know/be with. If you ask me why, well...
You're the only one who gives me not only what I want, but what I need. While the other guys chose to leave, you've chose to stay. Your persistence, that's what drove me to you. I love you. Thank you for letting me experience what I experienced today. It was priceless. I don't mean to be cheesy nor do I want to exaggerate. This is really honest, from the bottom of my heart. Xoxo
In places no one will find All your feelings so deep inside It was there that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry
